Foggy Banaue Rice Terraces After 5 years, I'm back. With nothing in my basket. I don’t know when and how to start over. I keep throwing my life down the drain because it sucks, and I’ve been told to start with a clean slate. So I dump everything in the toilet and flush, but for some reasons, the clean slate is more complicated than my messy life. Apparently, the starting over is kinda more difficult.  I'm still figuring out the whole ‘being alone’ thing. Some people say the more alone time you have with yourself, the more you will know yourself. But sometimes, the more I spend some alone time with myself, the more ridiculous questions I come up with. I just end up complicating my life even more. I ask a lot of questions about my past as if I can still do something to change it. And it doesn’t feel fair.  I'm not sure what the bigger picture is. Some of my friends said "Look at the bigger picture" but the problem is, I don't know what the f*ck is the